My Purple Pen

You’re probably asking yourself, “purple pen? what?”. All in due time, my readers, all in due time; you’ll find out in the end. This year AWiB brought us the idea of “legacy”, ‘a thing handed down to a predecessor’ by definition. At first all I wanted to do was get what needed to be done around my responsibilities as a board member concerning the program of the day. Because of everything else going on in my personal life, what with opening up a new place, being a mom, remembering to be the still fun wife and trying to maintain my social life, I had inadvertently placed the subject of “legacy” on the bottom of my list of things to reflect upon.

I did not allow myself to dwell on the subject matter till very late on. I was only focused on the business aspect of it, which I still struggle to find interest in. Funny huh? I went to get my Master’s in Business Administration, because that’s what I thought I had to do to understand how to run a business, yet I still found no pleasure in the whole concept of business. It’s personally enigmatic, if you ask me. But such was my case. I didn’t want to think of business, because I was too lazy to want to do the work it requires and too indolent to contemplate its importance and its reality in general.

But, of course, AWiB and her ways, she had to show me how blissfully ignorant I was. I am trying to be a businesswoman, and I am running a business and yet I still believe to myself, I know nothing about business even after my studies and my experiences? It’s crazy! I did, however, finally find out the opposite, through the process of getting ready for this last May Forum. Indeed I do know much more than I’d like to accredit myself for. And that is how AWiB gets you. She makes sure she lets you be as confused as you want to be about a certain subject. Only if you choose to, mind you. All in order for you to fight to understand it thoroughly; and only when you are ready.

AWiB made me realize that its not about the mundane, routine, work involved in running a business that matters, but more so, about one specific element of it all, the discipline to see it through. That’s the true characteristic of being in business. Some of us are lucky to be running our dream job business, and some of us are skilled in running different corporations and companies. And some of us, such as myself, struggle to latch off the comfort of ‘the employee mentality’, even when the opportunity to break free is upon us. With my new business venture though, the daily struggle with myself to remember to think like a leader and not act like a child, was and still is, all a reality check. School’s over, and behold, another chapter has begun again. So wake up girl!

AWiB also made me realize, just what I enjoy doing too. Write. I enjoy writing. A couple of months ago I decided I was going to use all this writing experience that I am having with AWiB and get more intimate with it. I was going to dig below my surface and begin my internal search for what I really wanted to write about, and I was going to read more diverse, interesting and fun books to enjoy the process. All this, just to prepare me for when I am finally ready to decide to make the commitment to write my book; i know I want to write a book, but I’m not sure what about. All I know is, I want to write. So if not today and probably not tomorrow either, I know it’s there in my path and AWiB has a lot to do with helping me see that truth about myself and to begin to think and reflect upon it. But even more importantly, she helped me start thinking of decision, just so I could plan on how to go about getting it done. First step’s first – want it. First you must know and then you must want.

The universe was not designed to want anything for you, but rather, only to give you everything you want. So I bought a notebook that reads on its hardcover “the distance is nothing, it’s only the first step that is difficult”. And to go along with it, I consciously bought myself a purple pen, specifically choosing the color for no apparent reason at the time but just for the fun of it. I was going to start my writing journey with color. On the first page I wrote down points of what I felt like I wanted to write about; people’s stories and the inter-connections of them all, and the true power of our intentions.

Guess what? After a month a half of going back to our daily lives after our May forum, we got together for our monthly board member meeting and Nahu handed me a book as a gift. Dr. Wayne W. Dyer’s ‘The Power of Intention: Learning to Co-create Your World, Your Way’. And on the front page a hand written note to me by Nahu, that reads, “may all intentions lead you to where you want to be”, in purple ink! Really? What are the odds? If that’s not a direct sign from the external forces that work on our behalf, then I don’t know what is!

So when, again, trying to figure what to blog about this month, my purple pen came to mind. It’s a coincidence I could not simply shrug off my shoulder. I had to reflect upon it, and more importantly I had to share it. We all have our purple pen moments. For instance when that one, distanced, friend in your life has continuously been popping up in your thoughts. You start hearing songs playing on the radio that reminds you of them, or you encounter a total stranger, accidentally, that also knew that person and great conversations are sparked because of it. Or when you have been struggling with a problem that you are stuck on, that you stubbornly took upon yourself to figure out by yourself, with too much pride to ask for help. As if purposely planned for your own benefit, an individual with that specific skillset you lack, just randomly shows up in your life for a whole other reason. Coincidences such as these are always present, if only we choose to embrace them.

I view coincidences as life’s little messengers, little sparkles, here and there, of evidence that you are connecting to your divine being. My purple pen is proof that my end result is in my hands to materialize. Proof that, me wanting to write, is not just a little fun and skip-along my life’s journey, but an actual force that I need to surrender to, for my own sake. A little nudge from the universe reassuring me I’m on the right path. However way you want to see it, its spiritually tangible to me. My purple pen, was my glimpse into my desired future, simply put. Even more interestingly, did you know that purple is associated with ambition and it represents creativity, and independence? I didn’t either.

I have managed to subconsciously tap into my creativity, independent of all my other attributes, and find the ambition to work towards realizing my dream to do something I really want to be able to do. I’ve said it before, and I’ll say it again, AWiB has her ways. She is one smart sneaky entity that, if you allow her to be that supportive guide, will lead to you to wherever you want to be. I’m glad to say I’ve found my purple pen and can only wish the same for others. Expose yourself to you, and open your heart to the light you have inside. What about you, what’s your purple pen?